Overflowing on Overkill

Well its only been a few hours since my last post and i already feel compelled to write another one. Im not sure why, or even what i want to say. I just want to type and write with no direction or restriction. which in a strange way leaves me at a loss at what to write... i think thats it more the fact that there are a hundred things going through my mind and i need some help sorting it all out but i cant say everything cos i'll piss off some of my friends and i dont have that many to begin with so id rather not piss them off. Gah. ive been sworn to secrecy on so many things by so many people i cant keep it straight who i was ans wasnt supposed to talk about. so i'll just shut up and pray that that was what i was supposed to do & if it wasnt then i guess im screwed. And then they can just get over it. What else am i supposed to do? this is a crappy topic considering theres probably no way anyone who's reading this will actually unserstanding it.

Im fully obsessed with this one song by Dido called "Here With Me" and its theme song for Rosewell the tv show. I love the lyrics and the way the song is. Its way different to what i usually listen to. I'll put the lyrics up here for you and then id better go to bed....

I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here
And I don't want to move a thing
It might change my memory

[Chorus:]
Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
But I can't hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
Until you're resting here with me

I don't want to call my friends
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed
Risk forgetting all that's been

[Chorus]


... ok time for me to go to sleep now. Talk 2 u all later
Shaddowdove