Bribery and Corruption

Well today has been a most interesting day. I have been told to suck poo by Tara, i have seen 2 kiddies at Kindy who were going canbalistic over their 'Baby', it was a doll but still they wanted to EAT IT. Speaking of food im hungry, & despite what Mrah'Sponagi says i am NOT, i repeat NOT made out of chocolate sponge cake though it would explain y i love chocolate so much.... i have had the strangest urge lately to listen to anything by Dido, which is really creepy by i seem to like her songs :S i might have to pick up a cd by her really cheap somewhere and listen to it 10 times and get over it and donate it to kindy for a Rest time cd. hmm sounds like a plan. But when can i get to the shops? Friday maybe i think i finish early so i can go then and meet up with Rhyan and Andy and the others as well....hmmmmsounds good to me :D now i just have to organise it. Damn i suck at organising things, it requires coordindation and an understanding of time, which i sadly lack. Well that and the fact that I am just lazy. And have no motivation to do much except for recently.... gee dont know y that is *winks and giggles* speaking of motivation i also have to motivation to do some ...different shopping to what i normally do. Pity i have no spare time really. *Shakes fist at the world* its so damn pissy. I only get to see my friends once a week, and my boyfriend twice... so wishing i was back in school right now, then i could see everyone everyday have plenty of money without having to work, not rent to pay. Life was so damn simple. No matter what anyone tells you, ignoreance is bliss. Great now im in a shitty mood *sigh*. i miss everyone so badly right now. I feel so alone sitting here in the dark in front of the computer. But what can i do? nothing. i can do nothing unless i ran all the way to paradice point and throw myself in the arms of my boyfriend.... who might actually be at his dads place instead which would be bad. Or i could go to Jazzy, Matty or Andrea's house.... Meh the effort. Fuck this shit. Im going away to write a story about a girl named Thorn, well at least start one. No garruntee that im actually going to finish it though. Would you like a little teaser? YES the silence screams back at me. Awesome here we go....
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My first memory was one of being alone. I was about ten years old and I was walking down a long dirt road. I don’t know where I was going or why. I was just walking, half tripping on the stones buried beneath the snow, ripping the souls of my feet to shreds with out realising it. I don’t know how long I was walking, time had lost all meaning to me. Day. Night. It never mattered because still I walked on. People passed me by without a glance, dismissing me as another street waif as I walked on and on.

I remember the snow rising up to my knees as I struggled to keep walking even though the road had been closed for the winter. Suddenly my foot caught on a tree root and I stumbled forward and off the side of the road into a ditch. My legs and arms flung out in every direction as I frantically fought to stop sliding down the banks slope. I finally landed at the bottom, my fall cushioned by a slurry of half melted snow and mud. It was there, in that cold embrace, that I finally gave up walking and let my weary limbs rest and slipped off into the blissful darkness of sleep....

How was that? sounded half decent? i dont really care either way.

Shaddowdove

P.S Dont worry i occasionally get this way sometimes i have to stop reading and listening to depressing things.